How do you get this judgement? by my ba1 zi4? or by your feeling? Maybe you are right but not totally. I love myself but you know every one loves his/herself. I can sacrifice to my husband or ex-bf. If this thing can let them happy, even if I did not like, I would try to let myself do it. But the only thing which I can not do for them is that I shall not give up my study, never. I gave up my study or work for my ex-bf. but he did not love me later. That made me think that as a woman, no matter how much you love a man, you need to be yourself independently. So when my husband asked me not to go to usa, I said No. Maybe this hurted him and he later loved another woman and ask for divorce.

I do not understand why you suggest me to 好好把握今年下半年? Will something happen in the next half year?

Thank you very much for giving your suggestion.