Dear dear BIG sister >_< , is better you get a job aboard(lies a much smoother path, reflected from your life pan) .Me truly recommend you to fetch your parents over to stay with you, show your filial piety when they are around.(Your past life had accumulated quite a sum of relationship debt,you have to pay it this time round in your current life.1 swift way is to exercise filial piety).Debt fruits can't be avoided.You could only choose the returning choice.They are all verbally written clear in all religion sutra.All your past life,pay them back either the similar way to others in current life or you must perform philosophy as return.<br />Help the needy , perform filial piety , have your self brightening up others life are the criteria keys to the door of philosophy.Bigggg sister,I hope my words had enlighten part of your mindset somehow.^_^<br /><br />P.S Sister please do often visit your ancestors' grave.Kept them well and tidy.There's a old rythme saying "All living are unforgiven to neglect their roots", is good that you often visit them. You are their decsendants, they will provide you all blessing from the another world.^.^