Dear,<br /> Until now, I still do not know how and what is the name I want to call you. I started to drink again now. She does not care about and you have no way to know if I did not tell you. I want to kill myself, what is wrong with me. Can I just talk it out and let everyone know how much I love you and how important you are in my life. This evening, I totally forgot I have kids that I need to support. I just feel I am not happy at all and I was yelling at my wife whom really does not know what is going on. I want to tell her , it is not your fault at all. I just met a girl who I really love and I am so sorry and I have to let you go so you can find your love while you were young. I feel sorry for her, I want her to know that is nothing wrong with her, just your husband. he is having a fair with another girl whom is the one he love most in his life. Please do not feel bad again. I know I just can't make decision really quick today. Today is my daughter's birthday.