Thank you for your help..

But does that mean, my marriage will end, I really don't have confidence on the long distance marriage, I am so tired, even think of relase both of us, me and my husband. is it right? he is a good person, only don't want to step out of china.

For that older-close friend, I just mentioned, don't blame me too much, it's so hurtful to realize later that I have feeling on him. does that mean we will never have chance to see each other again? he felt furt, me too. we tried to forget each other now.

When being abroad, I only want a person with me, two are too much, alone is too lonely. so I want a new start, if the mistake already made. if I plan to stay outside for the next two years, I will end my marriage to concentrate a new career. It's hard also to be blamed to decide giving up the marriage.

For the child thing, I am really appreciated and relieved.

Thank you so much
Fiona