Hi:
After sending those e-mails to you, I feel bad to myself. I should have used a softer tone to give you some advice. After all, considering the situation you are in, you might not be able to take the bitter medichine. Certainly, all I wrote reflected what I thought about your problems. But it might not help you at all but hurt you deeper. I believe most of people in this website are nice to those people who indeed need help. I just don't want to be an exceptional one.
So, this message stands for my true apology deeply from my heart.
Hopefully, the dark cloud will soon pass your sky and you can enjoy the warm sunshine.
Good luck ^-^
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夫君子之行﹕靜以修身,儉以養德。非澹泊無以明志,非寧靜無以致遠。夫學須靜也,才須學也。非學無以廣才,非靜無以成學。慆慢則不能研精,險躁則不能理性。
年與時馳,意與日去, 遂成枯落, 多不接世。 悲守窮盧,將復何及﹗-------諸葛亮誡子書