Thank you for the advice. I like my nickname because I love turtles and never considered nor mind that it might bring me bad luck (I know what you mean, haha).

Initially the affair is out of curiosity. I thinnk like TESS said earlier, I will never sit still and like changes and strive for better things... may be that is my problem. Something that I might need to be aware of and change if possible.

You said the key is whether I will really listen to other's advice or simply stick to what I believe. Honestly, most of the times I will ask for people's advice but rarely act on them. This time I will really take your advice to do a personality test - cos I really want to change for the better. Thank you for your response.